Sunday, March 29, 2009

Miss Perfectly Not

“I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.” – Kurt Cobain


If you found the love of your life one day and he doesn’t like something about you, will you be willing to change yourself to suit his whim and fancy?


As for me, I personally have not found anyone who would have made me do such a thing. Yet. And even if I had found someone like that, I ought to be smart enough to realize that he must not have loved me for me if all he wanted was for me to morph myself into who he wants me to be, right?


What’s the point of being married with two children and having a picture-perfect family on the outside when the truth is that you're miserable because you are pretending to be a person you're not every single day of the week? Wouldn’t it be pretty tiring?


And I'm quite sure that the love you had at the beginning will fade as time passes by because you will start to despise this person so much for playing such an important role in your life. When the fact is that you have no other to blame but yourself. You brought this upon yourself, remember? You could have put your foot down on the first day, but instead, you played along to the beat of his drums.


If change is to happen within me, it should be because I wanted to do so at my own free will and not merely because I wanted to please this so-called “love of my life” who obviously doesn’t love me for me.


I am who I am. I may not be Miss Perfect and have my own share of flaws but doesn’t everyone, yourself included? Sometimes, I can’t help but wish that people would look at the (other) shinier side of the coin instead of just focusing on the dull side.


You may think that I’m being selfish.


But at least, I have the guts to stand up and admit it.



“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.” – Dr. Seuss




I ain’t no great pretender,




3 comments:

Alexis PHX said...

He love you for you from the begining, and if he start to comment about you for being you, you should know that simply he don't love you as much anymore. Nothing to be sad, at least you know that he is just not the right person.

Anonymous said...

Mel~~~
u hv loved d wrong one today, it's past, it's history!
u will find d rite one sooner o later =)
n by then, u'll b glad for ur decision today ~.^

Cheers....

Melly said...

Alexis: Maybe the truth is that he doesn't really know me that well until now. Or perhaps he thought that he can change me but the truth is that I'm too stubborn and nothing can change this fact.
Yeah, agreed, better now than during our wedding day. Better now than on our 1st wedding anniversary. Better now than when our first child is born. Better now than when the kids are all grown up and there's just 2 of us left.
It's either now or never.

Anonymous: I have to agree. Sometimes it takes a lot of wrong moves to finally get it right. As what Thomas Alva Edison said "I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward."
I think I know who you are and I sincerely hope that one day, you'll find your knight in shining armour too! :)