Constant change

I'm almost at the end of my third week in a not-so-foreign city and suprisingly, no inspiration has yet to come my way. But I'm hopeful since all the settling down in the new working environment might need awhile to get used to.

I had earlier received unexpected news during my first week here. I wouldn't say that I looked like a deer caught in the headlights when I heard it - I think I suprised myself with the composure that I've shown. After all, nothing is permanent and the only thing constant is change. Although I am in no position to influence the decision, I refuse to allow the choices that others make affect me.

But I have to admit that as the weeks went by, the stress levels went up a little higher than anticipated. I guess there were good days and then there were bad days but I know I'll just need to learn how to manage them.


"You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future." - Author Unknown


Sangfroid,

Don't look back in anger

I had a glimpse of what could have been a part of my future last week. I couldn’t help but ask myself if I have made the right choice by choosing the pathway I’ve chosen. After all, I’m only human and we tend to make mistakes.

There was a minute during that moment when I actually questioned my decision but on the same evening itself, an incident further strengthened my belief that my choice was indeed right. Maybe if not now, it can be a few years down the road and the end result would have been the same after days and months living in misery.

Who can predict what will happen tomorrow or even the next hour? All I can say is that I’m optimistic about the future, wherever it may bring me.


“Every day is an opportunity to make a new happy ending.” – Author Unknown



I miss you sometimes,

Thank you

I remember when I was young, my mom used to tease me, saying that I carry gold in my mouth because I hardly talk. I have to admit that I was a shy child growing up and even nowadays, I still loathe those awkward silent moments when both parties are staring at each other like idiots.

Until today, I honestly still don’t see the point of blabbing away and think that small talk, although in certain situations necessary, are sometimes absolute rubbish and a complete waste of time.

Maybe I was a hermit in my previous life and hence, the difficulty in trying to adapt to this one.

The recent happening made me realize that this recluse actually do have friends. In fact, this week was pretty hectic with all the errands, packing, farewell gatherings and lovely dinners. I have to say that I am a bit reluctant to leave my previous job because of the friendships I’ve forged with some of the people through work. You know the feeling when you first met someone and instantly, you find that person likable and both of you just clicked?

I hope that the feeling isn’t one-sided when I said that I consider these people more than just colleagues and business partners but as friends as well. You should know who you are by now.

On top of that, I’m glad that I actually managed to spend some time with my old and dear friends. It may not be as much as I’d like to but as they say, better late than never. During one of the weekends spent with them, it dawned upon me that my closest friends are the ones that I can actually sit around, say or do nothing and still feel comfortable with.

These are the people whom I don’t have to make the effort to come up with some witty remarks on days that I don’t feel like doing so – they are the ones who let me be just, well, me.

If I’ve never told you how much I cherish our friendship, I hope that now is not too late.


“A good friend is a connection to life - a tie to the past, a road to the future, the key to sanity in a totally insane world.” – Lois Wyse


Blessed,

It's all in the timing

I’ve been staying in this little apartment for almost 5 years; 4 years, 8 months & 3 days to be exact. When I first stepped into 2009, I had a feeling that I was going to move out of this place for good.

A week from now, I’ll be out of here.

But for a totally different reason than what I had in mind in the beginning of the year.

Even though my initial dream did not materialize, I felt as if God has been smiling over me – by giving me the choice of walking down another path.

The cold, hard truth is that sometimes people let you down (and vice versa), but at the end of the day, what matters the most is that you don’t let them get to you.

Always remember that everything in life happens for a reason.

Maybe it’s just that you haven’t discovered yours yet.

"I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward." – Thomas Edison

Breathing a sigh of relief,

She got it

Had my haircut last week.

Wanted to go back to the same stylist that I went to during my pre-CNY haircut rush (Chinese will understand this term very well) because my colleagues seemed to think that she was better than my usual stylist but coincidentally, she wasn’t working on that day.

Initially, I wanted to wait til the next day but on second thought, I changed my mind and went ahead to the saloon to put my life (read: hair) in the hands of another stylist.

If you think that by now, I’d put up some photos of my new haircut, then you are wrong. Obviously you don’t know me well enough to know that I somehow feel that the camera doesn’t do me much justice - I usually look absolutely horrendous in 98% of my photos.

That’s not to say that I look absolutely stunning in real life-lah, after all, who am I to defy the mirror?

Anyway, back to the haircut: it turned out pretty okay (like they normally do after all the blowing and products used. And more often than not, it’s next to impossible to re-create the same look at home. Hmm...I wonder why). I’m not very particular about how my hair looks as long as it doesn’t involve sacrificing my snooze time in the morning.

It got me thinking…

If you’ve always stuck with the same old stylist your whole (adult) life just because you think that he gives you an awesome haircut, what makes you think that another can’t do the same or even better than that?

I guess it’s the same with life, be it in terms of your job, your partner or even your lifestyle. Just because you enjoy it now doesn’t mean that you are obliged to be attached to it for the rest of your days.

That’s what I always remind myself when I envy those people who marry their first loves.

How would they know that their partners are the best if they have never been with another person before?

And will they ever learn how to truly appreciate the ones that they’re with since they have no other b*tchy, atrocious and inconsiderate exes to compare them with?

The same goes if you return from one of your saloon visits with a botched-up haircut. So what? It’s not like it’s permanent damage - your hair will grow back, (sadly), whether you like it or not.

It’s not like it’s a cosmetic surgery which cost you RM8,000. If you despise it so much, you always have the option of going to another stylist to fix it.

When it comes to relationships, it’s the same thing. Just because you’ve been hurt badly once, doesn’t mean that the next one who comes along will follow the footsteps of your ex (unless you’re blinded by the bling-bling or really super-duper unlucky).

It’s always good to be cautious but when the time is right, you should be prepared to let your guard down.

Allow yourself a chance to make it right this time around.

“Live life fully while you’re here. Experience everything. Take care of yourself and your friends. Have fun, be crazy, be weird. Go out and screw up! You’re going to anyway, so you might as well enjoy the process. Take the opportunity to learn from your mistakes: find the cause of your problems and eliminate it. Don’t try to be perfect; just be an excellent example of being human.” – Anthony Robbins

Moonstruck,