a year wiser.
This is the last year when I can write my age with a number 2_ at the front. I'd rather not dwell too much on how scary it is sometimes when you stop to wonder where the hell has all the time gone.
(2010 has been quite alarming. It's approaching 4Q already??? You must be kidding me!)
And who am I to judge whether or not I am indeed wiser?
All I can say is that I do honestly feel that I've never been happier at any point in my life compared to right here. Right now.
Surely I'll be more delighted if I can get a better job offer tomorrow, with a fatter paycheck and manageable workload.
Or if I can meet the man of my dreams next week, marry him in a whirlwind (not bad, ok?) romance, proceed to have 3 beautiful children & live happily ever after in a house with a white picket fence.
When I can finally afford to buy myself a VW Golf GTI.
And what can be better than if I can eat all & whatever I want and never have to watch my weight and/or cholestrol?
I'm looking forward to the day when I can tell the one & only garbage truck in my life to his face that he can go and burn in garbage incinerator hell for all I care.
But while waiting for all these to happen...
What if I walked out on the streets tomorrow and get hit by a bus and coincidentally, am wearing my floral granny panties on that fateful day?
Or if I am to go for a medical check-up next week and the doctor discover that I have stage 3 lung cancer?
Or on my way to my dream vacation, the plane encounters engine problems, has to make an emergency landing but unfortunately, crashes into the sea?
The truth is that if you can't be happy and count your blessings right at this very minute in your life, maybe you will never ever be contented with what you have.
Because you have not realized that what you currently have is considerably so much, so much more than what the 72-year-old auntie selling packets of tissue at Hong Lim Complex has.
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My wish is that when my next birthday comes along, I'll be sounding like a broken record, saying the same thing I've said today: that I'm so much happier at that moment then than I've ever been before.
And I could not have asked for more.
"If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is thank you, it will be enough." - Meister Eckhardt
