Monday, December 8, 2008

You make me sick

Today I made a startling discovery in the comfort of my own home. A couple of things (3 articles, to be precise) which I have previously noticed had gone missing (but couldn’t be bothered to take time out to search for) have suddenly turned up somewhere they don’t belong.


After much thought, I have came up with 2 most likely possibilities:


(A) Obviously they have grown legs and decided to make themselves comfortable some place else; or


(B) Perhaps I have a sleeping disorder whereby I would wake up in the middle of the night and decided to offer some of my personal belongings to another.


I couldn’t believe my eyes even though this is not the first time that it has happened. How could she??? I know I like to leave my things lying around the apartment but still, hasn’t it occurred in her pea-sized brain that there is a possibility that I am bound to notice that my stuff have gone missing one day?


Which reminds me of the other day when my man has given me a good lecture for not offering her the moon cakes that he has bought and instead letting them go bad. And also how she treats me kindly every once in a blue moon. Over the past few days, I have somehow felt bad for being cold towards her all these while.


After all that this person has done, I don’t think that she deserves to be classified under the category of a friend.


Honestly, sometimes I feel like a pretentious, hypocritical b*tch when I’m nice to people whom I know are two-faced. It makes me sick to my stomach when I’m kind towards them because to me, it’s almost as if I’ve already stooped down to their level. How different am I from them if I say I despise these degenerates and yet, turn around and say polite things to them? Am I not being two-faced also by doing that?


Well, the brighter side is that at least next time I’ll know where to look for my stuff if I can’t find them anywhere else.


“My actions are my only true belongings.

I cannot escape the consequences of my actions.

My actions are the ground upon which I stand.”

- Thich Nhat Hanh




So sick,

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

are you 100% sure? sometimes we make mistake. at least i do it all the time. mebbe you should test it out...

Melly said...

Hmm, it seems that u still have faith in mankind after all these years. & I'm glad to know that u r still the same person I know back during our Sunway College days.

Now u r making me miss those days when I had u as my roommate.

Am I 100% sure? Well, this is actually the 3rd incident so I am 110% sure that it has nothing to do with mistakes. Unless u classify intentional acts as mistakes.

What kinda bait are u suggesting for the "test"?