Miss Perfectly Not

“I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.” – Kurt Cobain

If you found the love of your life one day and he doesn’t like something about you, will you be willing to change yourself to suit his whim and fancy?

As for me, I personally have not found anyone who would have made me do such a thing. Yet. And even if I had found someone like that, I ought to be smart enough to realize that he must not have loved me for me if all he wanted was for me to morph myself into who he wants me to be, right?

What’s the point of being married with two children and having a picture-perfect family on the outside when the truth is that you're miserable because you are pretending to be a person you're not every single day of the week? Wouldn’t it be pretty tiring?

And I'm quite sure that the love you had at the beginning will fade as time passes by because you will start to despise this person so much for playing such an important role in your life. When the fact is that you have no other to blame but yourself. You brought this upon yourself, remember? You could have put your foot down on the first day, but instead, you played along to the beat of his drums.

If change is to happen within me, it should be because I wanted to do so at my own free will and not merely because I wanted to please this so-called “love of my life” who obviously doesn’t love me for me.

I am who I am. I may not be Miss Perfect and have my own share of flaws but doesn’t everyone, yourself included? Sometimes, I can’t help but wish that people would look at the (other) shinier side of the coin instead of just focusing on the dull side.

You may think that I’m being selfish.

But at least, I have the guts to stand up and admit it.

“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.” – Dr. Seuss

I ain’t no great pretender,

Horoscopes for the week beginning 29th March 2009

Virgo: aug 24 - sept 23

Sun 29th March - Sat 4th April The clash between Saturn and Mars brings partnership and friendship issues to the fore, as it seems the main players in your life all want to have the upper hand. No contest. You're stronger than all of them put together. The start of the month sees the start of new beginnings, so get everyone on your side and get them to understand that no matter how they play the game, you're always going to be the victor. There's an excellent opportunity to reach new levels in your emotional life, as Mercury, your ruling planet, connects to Venus and the sun and takes you to a place of new understanding and intensity over love and passion. Long term plans look stable and secure (I sure hope so!), as does making commitments, so let your passions overflow. TRY TO-discuss joint finances

Source: Frank Pilkington at http://www.frankpilkington.com/

If you're born in the month of September, you are most probably...

Suave and compromising.

Careful, cautious and organized. – Except when driving. Watch out!

Likes to point out people's mistakes. – Ask my colleagues, they’ll vouch for that.

Likes to criticize. – I can’t help it, really. I think I should seriously consider quitting my job and be a teacher. They get paid for both criticizing and pointing out their students’ mistakes, right? How cool is that?

Stubborn. – That’s my middle name.

Quiet but able to talk well. – Honestly, I think I can spend the whole day at home without speaking a single word. Come to think of it, make it two whole days.

Calm and cool. – What’s cooler than cool? Ice cold. (As heard on 'Hey ya' by Outkast)

Kind and sympathetic. – To animals, maybe?

Concerned and detailed. – This is some of the stuff that I’ve learnt from my first job. I guess it has become part and parcel of who I am today.

Loyal but not always honest. – Hmm… No comment.

Does work well. – I wonder if my boss will assure you on this one. I guess I’ll just have to shine up to her in exchange.

Very confident.

Sensitive.

Good memory. – So not true. I think I need more gingko biloba.

Clever and knowledgeable. – Uhm… *speechless*

Loves to look for information. – This is partly because I like to be always right and although I like to criticize others, I don’t enjoy it as much when the tables are turned.

Must control oneself when criticizing. – I know this but the question is how???

Able to motivate oneself.

Understanding.

Fun to be around.

Secretive.

Loves leisure and traveling.

Hardly shows emotions. – Let’s just say that I’m not an open book.

Tends to bottle up feelings. – I must have a huge collection of bottles & jars at home by now.

Very choosy, especially in relationships. – I’m saying this is true just to make my exes happy. No point in burning the bridges behind me, right?

Systematic. – Occasionally, only when I’m in the mood, especially as a camouflage for procrastinating more important items on my To Do List.

Nothing compares 2 U

You know when you were a kid how your mom used to compare you with your cousins or the neighbour’s kids of the same age group? I used to hate that and I swore to myself that I’ll never do the same thing to my kids in the future.

It’s sad to think that even now that I’m all grown up; I still have to face this kind of situation.

Your boyfriend measuring you up to his ex-girlfriend.

Your superior comparing you with your colleagues.

And worst, until today, sometimes your parents are still putting you side by side against your siblings or their friend’s children, especially when it comes to getting hitched and in terms of career.

How healthy is that?

The only difference is that now you have the right to speak up.

To the boyfriend: Since she’s such a gem, you should be married to her with 3 kids and would have lived happily ever after by now. So what the hell are you doing here with me?

To the boss: If somebody can do the job better and more efficient than I can, why the hell are you wasting your b***dy precious time telling me such things when you can just ask your Ms Super-Efficient & Effective to do it since she can get it done in 20 minutes?

How difficult is it to understand that each person is unique and has his/her own positive and negative traits, which make him, well, him? If everyone is identical then the world would be really boring, wouldn’t it? As if this is rocket science.

We should be celebrating our individuality and not wasting our time listening to people who tell us how we should or should not live our lives.

“I just broke up with someone and the last thing she said to me was “You’ll never find anyone like me again”. I’m thinking, “I should hope not! If I don’t want you, why would I want someone like you?” – Author Unknown

Standing up,

Horoscope for the week beginning 22nd March 2009

Virgo: aug 24 - sept 23

Week of: Sun 22nd - Sat 28th March There's a new edge to you this week as the sun moves into Aries, and you're seeing the long term more clearly. Anything that's jointly held needs to be discussed fully, so sit around the debating table and go over everything with a fine tooth comb. Pluto brings fate and destiny to all your dealings, so bear this in mind as you plan ahead. Say what you mean and mean what you say. Uranus and Mercury in your partnership house tell you to listen well to information that comes your way. In that way, you'll know exactly where you stand. The backward motion of Saturn in your sign eases off recent pressure and gives you some breathing space. Allow repressed sensuality and passion to emerge. It could change your life. TRY TO-balance work and love

Frank Pilkington at http://www.frankpilkington.com/index.php

Always sunny in a rich man's world

The TV at home is showing signs of severe jaundice and yet, I’m still watching it like nobody’s business.

Isn’t it interesting to observe life in an altogether different hue?

However, I have to admit that at times, I do get a little confused because this is the background colour setting that some shows use for their flashbacks of the past.

After the TV, the water heater began to act up. Or was it the heater first then followed by the TV? I can’t really recall since a couple (or two) months have passed.So now I have no choice but to start and end my day jumping like a monkey on my bathroom floor to counter the effect of the icy-cold showers.

How invigorating.

Since I’m already exercising at home, twice daily (impressive!), I am now seriously considering giving up my gym membership for good.

Are these tell-tale signs that something big is bound to happen?

Or does it merely mean that my contribution to the growth of the almost stagnant economy will be made obligatory soon?

“When I was young I used to think that money was the most important thing in life. Now that I am old, I know it is.” – Oscar Wilde

A die-hard CSI fan who
doesn't mind watching re-runs,

See the Trees

By William Lambert

I lived in Alabama on a half-acre lot blessed with huge oak trees that were 40 feet in diameter. They were HUGE! The house was laid out in such a manner that every bedroom faced the backyard and each bedroom had a large picture window. The view was breathtaking. I enjoyed just looking at the trees. In the fall, I would identify a particular leaf that was falling and watched it for what seemed liked 5 minutes before it fell to earth.

One day, I invited this married couple over to enjoy the view from the bedroom window. I took them into the bedroom and excitedly pointed to the trees out of the window and exclaimed, "Just look!"

After about 20 seconds there was no comment from the couple. I, however, noticed a big frown on the woman's face.

I said, "What's wrong?" She was reluctant to reply.

I insisted and again said, "What's wrong?"

She relented and said, "Don't you see those fingerprints on the glass?"

I turned and looked and there were what seemed to be fifty or more fingerprints on the glass. I ran for the Windex to clean the glass. The lady "Oh, I didn't mean for you to clean it now."

The morale here is this: That lady never saw the trees. Even when I tried to point them out, she missed it! As for me, I didn't see the fingerprints. I was looking through the glass and not at it.

When the fingerprints were pointed out to me, I saw them and removed them. The lady never saw the trees. She focused on the fingerprints and never got passed them.

Life is very much like that. There are things in life that are good and things that are bad. You choose which things you want to focus on. I focus on the trees.

What are you focusing on?

Confessions

I don’t know how to react when someone I know in my every day life makes a remark about something I’ve written on my blog.

It just feels pretty weird.

If given a choice, I would rather much prefer if they had posted a comment here instead. At least that gives me a chance to ponder and figure out some intelligent response in return.

But in real life, we can’t always have our cake and eat it too, can we?

For me, my blog is just an avenue for me to vent and keep my sanity intact.

Nothing more, nothing less.

“There is only one difference between a madman and me. The madman thinks he is sane. I know I am mad.” – Salvador Dali

Psycho,

When love & hate collide

“When divided we stand, baby, united we fall”

I never thought it was possible to love someone so much and also hate him with such passion all at once.

On certain days, we can’t even see eye-to-eye. I guess both of us are too stubborn and refuse to give in each time we are in a heated argument.

I don’t see why I should be the one apologizing when I didn’t do anything wrong in the first place – well, at least that’s what I thought of 2 out of the 3 arguments that we’ve had recently.

And even if I did, until today, I can’t see the reason why he should raise his voice at me. I’m 28 years old, for heaven’s sake, not his 3-year-old daughter! Even my mom doesn’t talk to me in such a manner.

I know I’m extremely stubborn and I won't deny that. I’ve always believed that if I’m right, I need to stand up for myself because if I don’t, nobody else will. If you are looking for a doormat, I’m sorry but you won’t find it here.

On top of that, I’m a carrot person and the stick method doesn’t work on me at all. Maybe he hasn’t realized this yet.

Or maybe he prefers to apply the stick method just because it has worked for him in the past.

I love him dearly but perhaps at the end of the day, I still love myself more.

“The good ended happily, and the bad unhappily. That is what Fiction means.” – Oscar Wilde in ‘The Importance of Being Earnest’

Just as I am,

Remember the time

Sometimes when I look back at my past, I would smile thinking of how smitten I was towards a certain person.

You know the feeling that he was meant to be ‘The One’?

I think it was those feelings that kept me going throughout those years with him - through all the heartache and tears. Read the rest of the story here:

http://mellys03.blog.friendster.com/2007/03/the-story-of-a-girl-and-a-leopard/

At least I know now that we can’t rely on our hearts alone when it comes to relationships.

Rationality should be a keyword in all of our dictionaries.

If being together with him/ her doesn’t make you happy today, what makes you think that things will change tomorrow?

But sometimes the truth is indeed hard to swallow.

If two people are meant to spend their lifetimes together, it will happen eventually. No pushing or shoving required.

If it’s not intended to be, no matter how much effort one party puts in, at the end of the day, both sides will end up being miserable. So, what’s the point?

Are there things that you’ve regretted in any past relationships?

Definitely. But I've made my choice and am now walking down the path I’ve picked. And there seems to be no U-turn in sight. Maybe this is where and who I'm destined to be with – as of now.

After all, who are we to say that we know for certain what is going to happen tomorrow?

Considering the fact that we are no fortune tellers, well, at least I'm not anyway.

“You need the serenity to accept the things you cannot change, the courage to change the things you can and the wisdom to know the difference.” – Reinhold Viebuhr

No turning back,

Smacking my lips

“Two minutes on the lips, two years on the hips.”

Bah, who gives a s**t about the diameters of my thunder thighs?

If I get hit by a bus whilst crossing the road and died tomorrow, there will be no Maccas waiting for me when I crossed over – if there is such a thing as ‘the other side’. And should there ever be one, I hope that Melinda Gordon will point me to the right path. Mmm… she is indeed one hot momma.

One thing’s for sure, the worms will be having a feast.

Nah, I think I’d prefer to be cremated. The thought of worms squirming all over my cold, lifeless body repulses me. And to think that I can’t flick them away with my fingers… Eww.

Life is too short.

Even to think about life beyond death.

On a totally different note, how difficult is it to park within the confines of your own parking bay? Even a handful of bus drivers know how to park their vehicles properly so I can't understand why these fools can't learn to be more considerate. Watch out, because one day, you may just lose one of your side mirrors, thanks to either your brilliant parking skills or your tactlessness; or if you're lucky enough, both.

Oops, I forgot. Since they are idiots, they might never learn. Well, not in this lifetime anyway.

Come to think of it now, I actually feel sorry for these sods.

Running to the gym,